My NYE look and why I’m not dieting in 2018

LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez

Maybe I look glamorous on the internet but Y’all I promise in real life I’m not that fancy. Why I’m not dieting in 2018? We’ll get to that in a minute. The hubs and I really just like hanging out at the house, we’ve never been big on New Years.

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The most exciting New Years we had was the one when we got engaged (doesn’t that sound like a Friends episode title?). We will probably be asleep by 11 which is totally fine with me. That’s why I love having this blog and my social media platforms so that I can get all…

…fancy and play dress up.

This year’s Elegant collection was one for the books. You guys, I wanted every single piece. I love how this Elegant Sarah and Elegant Carly work together as pattern mixing.

Pattern mixing is a question I get a lot,I always recommend starting with something safe like stripes and florals and then branch out. You can also pattern mix with textures which is another great pattern mixing baby step.

The sequence in this Sarah adds texture and pairs well with the design of the Carly. Since there is a lot going on in my outfit, I just added a little pop of jewelry with my earrings.

If you want your outfit to make a statement, in a good way, pick one thing that you want to be the statement, either the outfit or the accessories. If you try to do both, you’ll end up like a Lisa Frank design gone wrong and that’s saying something.

Make the outfit the statement

In this case, I wanted to make the outfit the statement so I pulled back some on my jewelry. If I wanted to make the jewelry stand out, I would wear a more neutral outfit. You get the point. If you’re looking to shop for NYE or any special occasion you have coming up click here to view my shop

LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez, LuLaRoe Elegant

So okay, if you’re a human on the planet you’ve probably seen a ton of posts this week.

About overdoing it during the holidays and vowing to change in the New Year. And for the last 10 years, that was me. Every single year I would go on a new plan or diet.

Convinced I had finally found the one that would save me but here’s the thing, diets never work. You can call it a lifestyle, you can claim it’s a newly discovered food allergy. (Um hello my gluten-free year) but at the end of the day, diets are liars.

For 10 years I looked to diets to save me, they were a false religion to me.

I believed that if I followed all of the diet rules I would finally find health, happiness, worth, contentment, the life I wanted. But like any idol we have in our lives. They leave us feeling empty and unsatisfied.

A few years ago, I threw up my hands after my last failed attempt and thought, “I can’t do this anymore”. I am tired of living by a set of rules I read in some, book!

My intuition

At the time I was under a lot of stress and was experiencing some minor health problems. Such as fatigue, chronic sinus infections, joint pain, brain fog, bathroom issues, and the list goes on. What I didn’t know then but I do now is that my intuition was trying to tell me to listen to my body.

“their only suggestion was to lose weight”

When finally, sitting down to write out all the symptoms I was having, filling it from front to back. I went to the doctor but all of my blood-work came back fine and their only suggestion was to lose weight…well okay then, fuck you. (I’ll be coming back to this whole weight shaming epidemic in an upcoming post)

I wanted to dig deeper though because that intuition kept nagging at me. My body was trying to tell me something. I had been putting off seeing a nutritionist about my health because I figured she would just tell me I was a horrible person for not being able to stick to a diet plan, lose weight and maintain it.

Reluctantly I made an appointment and to my surprise, she was kind, compassionate and life-giving.

She told me to allow myself foods that I had formerly forbidden. You guys, she told me to EAT CARBS and put real half and half in my coffee, if I wanted it. We added a whole list of vitamins to my daily routine and she told me to find time during the day to relax and be present.

She also recommended a book to me, I’m going to share it with you at the bottom of this post but please please please know it is not another diet. It’s about changing your relationship with food, your body and the way society views both of those.

More than anything the process for me has been about my mental health. I have had to fight so hard and am still fighting to get rid of my diet culture mindset.

In 2018

So in 2018, I am not going on a diet, I am not restricting sugar, I am not forcing myself to do crazy workouts. I am going to allow myself to enjoy my food, I am not going to judge what I am eating. I’m going to walk the dog and go to yoga and I am going to let myself be.

If nothing else after reading this post, I hope you know that limiting your carbs, counting your calories, avoiding sugar, only eating organic, and drinking green juice does not determine your worth.

You are allowed to listen to what your body is telling you.

You are allowed to enjoy a salad, not because you have to eat it but because you want to eat it.

You are also allowed to put half and half in your coffee.

You are allowed to be.

There are a million other things I want to say but I better save those for upcoming posts, my SEO counter is telling me I’m reaching my word limit. Be sure to scroll down for some resources that have helped me in my recovery.

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photos by @kellieblogs

Intuitive Eating II Katherine Andrew II The Body Love Society II Nutrition Matters Podcast II Food Psych Podcast

*I am not a doctor or a dietician or a mental health professional. This is only my personal experience. If you think you might be in a similar situation please seek professional help. The resources I linked are a great start but I highly recommend you reach out to someone who can help.

 

Thanks for reading.

Remember that you are worthy and deeply loved!

xoxo,

Tracy

Elegant Holidays

LuLaRoe Elegant, LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez

LuLaRoe Elegant, LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez

Tis the season for getting fancy y’all, today I’m styling two LuLaRoe Elegant pieces. One of the pieces is vintage Elegant and the other is from this year’s release but I promise both of them are swoon worthy. I’m not usually a huge fan of glitter, I think it’s PTSD from crafting with kids while I was a teacher. This time of year though, I make an exception. I even put glitter on my nails because it’s fun and festive. I especially love all of the pieces from our Elegant collection which are sparkly, shiny and super festive.

LuLaRoe Lucy, LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez

This skirt is the Lucy and I love how dramatic she is. I paired her with this fun ruffle shirt. I love that the shirt has long sleeves because I cannot do cold weather y’all. Grab a cute clutch and a pair of heels and you’re good.

LuLaRoe Lucy, LuLaRoe Elegant

The next look mixes a few trends together. The first being a lace top. I got this one here and then I put a black cami that I already had under it. It looks kind of weird on the hanger because it’s completely see through but I promise if you put a cami under it, you’ll love it

I promise I was not trying to flip anyone off…or am I? Kidding, I was just trying to hide the glitter container and hold my clutch all with one hand while I casually tucked my hair behind my ear.  #actnatural

Totally digging all of these textures together. Are you DYING over this skirt? It’s a Jill, normally they are pleated but with the Elegant collection they are in all different fabrics. I’m a fabric nerd but I don’t know what this material is called, if you do be sure to let me know in the comments. All I know is that it is freaking fabulous!

LuLaRoe Elegant, LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez

So as I mentioned above, I’m not usually a huge fan of glitter and here is why. Let me set the scene for you, first it was 34 degrees and as you can see I am in short sleeves. Add to that the fact the morning of the shoot there were some sort of arctic winds so it was super windy. My rock star photographer Kellie wears her sweet baby while she shoots. So we wanted to make quick work of this particular photo because brrrr y’all. So we go to do the first glitter shot and a huge gust of wind comes through and throws the glitter all over me. Opposite of the effect we were going for. Repeat times five and goodbye glitter, goodbye shot. We were just trying to not cry from laughing so hard. The last shot we nailed it but I had to blow into the camera but that also meant into the baby that Kellie is wearing. So not only am I covered in glitter but so is Kellie and so is the baby. I swear it’s like sand at the beach, I wouldn’t be surprised if Kellie found glitter in Emmaline’s diaper. It brings “she leaves a little sparkle wherever she goes” to a whole new level. So glamorous y’all!

Let’s have a moment for these socks y’all. I saw this trend in Instyle earlier this fall and then again in the LuLaRoe Elegant collection photo shoot and I thought um wow, that’s a lot. Then the more I looked at it the more curious I got. Here’s the thing about fashion and trends, if it doesn’t make you a little uncomfortable then you’re not doing it right. Then I happened upon a pair at Target and I decided to give them a try. You can shop the socks here.

One time I had someone ask me how I got to be so confident. It was one of those situations where you look around you to make sure the person is talking to you. Um, I don’t know that I am confident. I just do things and then later realize I did it which makes me bolder the next time and so on and so forth. So I guess it’s just something that grows the more you take chances. I know that being bolder in my fashion choices has helped me feel more confident. I don’t always think that I am rocking something in the moment but I’ll look myself in the mirror, channel my inner Beyonce and just do the dang thing. It’s a mix of being stubborn and not wanting anyone to tell me what do to. You don’t think socks should be worn with high heels? Challenge accepted. I love that this look is not only festive but it also pushes me outside my comfort zone in the best way possible. I attended a Mad Men themed cocktail party a few weeks ago which was the perfect place to rock this outfit. I’m looking forward to finding ways to wear my Elegant all year long. What about you? How are you dressing for the holidays? Looking for some Elegant pieces to add to your wardrobe? You can shop them here

photos by @kellieblogs

 

Thank you for reading.

Remember that you are worthy and deeply loved!

xoxo,

Tracy

Do you remember the first time someone called you fat?

Do you remember the first time someone called you fat or made you feel shame about your body?

I do. It was 5th grade, we were at a sleep over and I was the new kid. You should probably also know I was a new kid in a new country which makes being the new kid just that much harder. Not only do you have normal new kid anxiety but you are also dealing with a new culture, new expectations and new standards. I attended an English speaking school so thankfully there was no language barrier. We had just moved to Japan and I was finally invited to hang out with the popular girls.

There we were with our sleeping bags rolled out in a wagon wheel pattern. We laid on our stomachs, chins resting in our hands, giggling about boys we liked and teachers we hated. Then one of the girls said I’m going to ask a question and everyone has to answer truthfully. We all agreed. How much do you weigh? The girls started going around the circle and rattling off numbers. It got to me and I didn’t know mine because at that age, why would I know? Or care?

So they decided the only acceptable thing to do was to weigh me. They marched me upstairs to the bathroom and I got on the scale. There were a few other foreigners there but mostly Asian girls, they looked down at the number and started giggling and whispering to each other. Clueless, I looked down too only to realize that the number was significantly higher than all the numbers they had just minutes ago recited. In my mind I thought, Asians are built differently, smaller frame, more petite.

Americans are bigger boned by nature, women in my family especially were curvy. We’re just different, my mind said. The same way a chihuahua is made differently than a golden retriever. But it was too late, the damage had been done as I looked up and my eyes met their gaze. I felt a warmth come over me, it was the first time I felt shame over what my body looked like or what the number on the scale said. I wish I could say it was the last time but you know where this story is going because I am pretty sure you have a similar one.

LuLaRoe Shirley, LuLaRoe Lola, LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez

I think that deep down I’ve always wanted to love myself, always inherently knew I had worth and value but other people, society, lack of extended sizes at stores, made me internalize that who I was wasn’t acceptable. That if I didn’t shrink my size, I wouldn’t matter because they didn’t make clothes for those people. Remember when designer jeans first became a big thing? I tried on the biggest size they had in 7 for all Mankind jeans and they barely zipped up.

I though to myself, I better not gain any weight or better yet, I should lose weight. If I don’t fit in these jeans, I won’t fit in. For years I put myself on crazy restrictive diets and over exercised to make my body into what I thought society wanted. I internalized the idea that clothing at the stores only went up to a size 12 therefore I must maintain that size 12 or force myself to get down to a size 10.

When in reality, I was doing damage to my body by not allowing it carbs, only drinking green juice, only allowing xxx amount of calories, despite being exhausted forcing myself to get up and run 3 miles before school all under the guise of “being healthy”. It took a huge life change, ahem quitting a steady paycheck, infertility issues and just general life dissatisfaction for me to finally turn inward and ask my body what it wanted.

It’s a process, it’s a journey, I’m still learning how to hear my body and allow what I denied myself for so many years. Slowly I’m learning that who I am and who I am becoming is who I was suppose to be all along.

LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez, LuLaRoe Shirley, LuLaRoe Lolashout out to @kellieblogs for always making me feel like a champion

In my post Beauty and the {Instagram} Beast I talked about cleaning up your social media feeds, unfollowing anyone who makes you feel less than, not enough, unacceptable. For me that meant unfollowing some of my favorite celebrities, Busy Phillips, I love you girlfriend but I cannot hear about your Whole 30 or your Lekfit workouts for one more day. And then a huge second step to that is start following people who make you feel good about yourself.

Maybe they don’t look like you and that’s okay. Here is the thing, when you stop focusing on yourself and how you should look, you can start looking at and appreciating other people. Just like animals, people come in all shapes and sizes. You wouldn’t ask a dog to become a monkey just like you wouldn’t ask a tall person to be shorter. I have found through this process a whole new community of women who love who they are and rock their confidence.

Brené Brown in her book, Braving the Wilderness says this:

“But I’ve discovered something wonderful, the steps between the city gates and the wilderness are the loneliest. Where safety is in the rear-view mirror, new territory remains to be seen, and the path out to the unknown seems empty. But put one foot in front of the other enough times, stay the course enough to actually tunnel into the wilderness and you’ll be shocked how many people already live there. Thriving, dancing, creating, celebrating, becoming. It is not a barren wasteland. It is not void of flourishing, The wilderness is where all the creatives, prophets and system buckers and risk takers have always been, thriving. The walk out there is hard but the authenticity out there is life.”

I share these deeply personal and deeply vulnerable things with you not to solicit praise or fish for compliments but to let you know that I struggle too. Not to take anything away from the original intent of #metoo but I think there are so many of us that are struggling with our bodies in silence. If we bring light to those dark places, it loses it’s power. So if you’d like to reach out, I’m here. I’m happy to talk, cry, laugh, whatever you need.

More than anything I want you to know that you are worthy and deeply loved.

xoxo,

Tracy

 

Styling the Amelia for the Holidays

LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez
LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez
How to style your LuLaRoe Amelia for the Holidays

The Christmas season is upon us. The stress of what to wear to work parties, church events and for family photos. I feel ya gf, it’s just one more thing to add to your already growing to do list. So, I’ve put together 2 different ways to style my Amelia. I know solid black Amelias are hard to come by but I still have a few left in my shop. Click here to join.

The first way is to layer a shirt under your Amelia, I know, right? Game changer! Since I wanted to be festive for this photo I picked a buffalo plaid but a chambray or other nice holiday plaid would do. I love how the collar comes out and lays on top of the dress.

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Thin belts have been my thing lately, especially this leopard print one. It adds just the right amount of pattern mixing without being too wild and crazy. I also love the pop of sparkle this statement necklace gives it. See that collar detail? Love it!

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Another trend I was dying to try is the neck scarf, so chic. And what better time to channel your inner Parisian than for your Christmas card?

LuLaRoe Amelia, neck scarf

I tried it tied up really short and tied with a longer tail. Which way do you like better?

LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez, LuLaRoe Amelia

I added a touch of leopard with my clutch, I just love how it adds whimsy to the look.

LuLaRoe Amelia, LuLaRoe Tracy Vazquez
photos by @kellieblogs

Can we take a moment for these boots? I mean, I die! Sometimes LuLaRoe releases products to us consultants first, as a test market. They have been working on adding shoes for a while and it’s something that will be coming down the pipe. These are rose gold and slit on the sides. I also ordered a leopard pair. I’ve found in fashion that if I’m not a little uncomfortable at times, I’m not doing it right. These boots definitely push me outside my comfort zone in the best way possible. I never thought I’d wear a moto jacket but honestly it is one of my favorite things in my wardrobe. The same thing goes for these booties. I was wearing them the other day and a lady at TJ Maxx said I looked like a rock star. I’ll take it because honestly, I feel like a rock star in these shoes. So, stay tuned for more dets on our shoes.

Remember you are worthy and you are loved

xoxo,

Tracy